Inspirational Writing - Solitude

Looking out upon the vast space in every direction, I sit and lean against the only tree. It might be the only tree, but it is truly the most beautiful tree, and as I lean heavily, wearily against its old, gnarled bark, I take in a deep, clean fresh breath, really filling my lungs, and slowly letting it go. Such a small island, just me, this tree, and lots of open space. I can hear the water lapping at the edges of the island, very gently, almost silently. I look up through the branches, laden with purple flower. In this open space, and all on its own, I am slightly surprised that the tree is even here. When the wind gets up it must absolutely howl across here at a rate of knots, and the ancient roots look more out of the ground than in. Yet here it stands, strong, proud, and beautiful. I wonder long the tree has been here, how it even got here in the first place. It is surprisingly comfortable, given how deep the ridges are in the green and brown bark, but I am very comfortable, and feel at ease. Its as though the tree has enveloped me in a big, soft and warm blanket. 

I can feel the tree, obviously, as I am leaning on it, but I can feel an energy emanating from it, which is warm and tingly, and soaking in to the very bones of me, its comforting. My mind starts to relax, and not think so much. My mind is a constant hub of activity most of the time, and yet I took to meditating like a duck to water! I never thought I would master it, let alone so quickly. Sometimes it is harder than others, and sometimes, when my mind has gone in to overdrive I don't even bother to try. I know that much about myself. At this moment in time, this tree is the best therapy, like ever. When I go home, I wish I could take the tree with me, so I could gaze at it daily, but obviously, I cant. It strikes me that this is a selfish thought, maybe the tree is happy here, maybe it doesn't want to be uprooted and set down in an alien society, ripped away from its familiar surroundings. Alien society, western society, my society. If I could bring my family and friends here to the tree, we could all live here on the island happily ever after. Wishful thinking. Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it. And it might be fabulous, everything you expected and more. It might be a happy relief, a stroke of good luck at last, alleviating some stress or worry. Or it might suck.  

Nothing is ever simple is it? I do know, that I can think clearly for the first time in a long time. Life has a tendency to take over, and you just get caught up in the stuff that you have to do, the everyday chores, worries, working life, and you just need space to catch your breath, and look at things from a different perspective. Away from the people that you love, the people that you like, the people that you don't. Away from the madness of work, the chaotic family trials and tribulations, dramas and finances. Take a look at the path you are on, and the path you should be on. Time to refocus, and get back to living the life you want to live. I know I am meant for something different, something fulfilling, nurturing, and just plain amazing. But at this moment in time, it wont pay the bills. 

Listen to that - absolute silence. It's almost deafening, it really could make you feel quite vulnerable, but I just feel, relaxed, and almost like me again. The water is so very still, everything is so very still, just the odd cloud floating aimlessly across the bluest sky, and yet I can't feel the slightest breeze. The only movement in fact is me, my mind is slowing down to a fast walk, and my chest is rising and falling with my breath, and that is the only movement, for all I know in the whole wide world. 

The tree stands tall amongst the mossy rocks that have been its home for I don't know how long, and the rest of the island is lush green. I think about moving to lay on the green carpet that is the island, but I'm quite comfortable and actually can't be bothered to move. Leaning against my strong, soft tree, I close my eyes. I can see that my physical life has a strong hold on me, and I have very much neglected my spiritual journey. I take a deep breath, and there he is, he always manages to creep up on me, and I mirror his smile, and his warmth. His smile can melt away all doubts, all niggling negativities, and fill you with positive certainty, all in the blink of an eye. 

I Love my Spirit Board

I know a lot of people are against the use of a spirit board, or ouija board. There is a lot of negative hype surrounding them, and their use. But I have to say, I have used a spirit board for around 20 years, and I have never once had a bad experience.

Did you know that the ouija board was in fact one of the very first ways for spirit communication to take place? The board does have quite a history, and I'm sure you all know someone who knows someone that did the ouija board when they were kids, and really scary stuff happened. Well this is what happens when spirit communication isn't treated with the respect that it deserves. Because there is a fear of the unknown, and because like attracts like, if you start a ouija board session and have no idea what you are doing, and doing it just for a laugh, or to be scared, or just to see what happens, then this is what you are going to attract.

During the many spirit board sessions that I have held, we have had some lovely spirit communication, some beautiful messages, and also some amazing table tipping. The atmosphere is phenomenal, and I always feel very uplifted and "buzzing" after a spirit board session. Some of the people that have attended the sessions have been a little apprehensive about it, because the ouija board has such a negative reputation, but they have been completely converted, and now know that there is nothing to be frightened of, and as long as things are done properly, and people don't use the board as a "toy" to be played with, then they can experience some wonderful spiritual phenomena. Messages from their family and friends in spirit have completely verified the authenticity of the board, by asking a question that no one else knows the answer to, and spirit have willingly provided the answer, proving that no one in the room is controlling the board.

I will say, that you should not, under any circumstances be tempted to "play" with a ouija board. If you don't really know what you are doing, then don't do it. This is simply because like attracts like, and if the energy and atmosphere is negative, then you will attract negative energy to the session, and if the session is not being supervised or led by someone that does know what they are doing, this can be a little frightening to the novice.

If you get the opportunity to attend a properly led spirit / ouija board session, then I would highly recommend it. Sessions should ideally be led by an experienced Medium. A Medium can often give information to go with the messages that come through the board, such as giving a description of the person as they were when they were alive, which offers further validation that it really truly is spirit that are communicating through the board, and through the medium.

I do hold these sessions regularly at my home in Harwich, Essex, and you are very welcome to contact me about them if you would like some further information, or would like to attend an evening.

I hope you have found this information of some use, even if it simply goes a little way to helping you to keep an open mind towards spirit communication, and the use of a spirit / ouija board. People all too often believe the horror stories that they hear about the use of the ouija board, and consider them to be dark and dangerous, without considering that these horror stories have been re told and re told over a number of years, and have no doubt been altered and embellished along the way. Please do keep an open mind, because there a few people who have had first hand experience of a properly led session, and so can vouch that it really isn't a scary experience, but rather a beautiful and exciting experience.

Until next time, when I will be sharing some inspirational writing with you,

Sophie xx

Working Life

My working life has been something of a rollercoaster. At 16 I worked in a factory and also ran a market stall, from there I've worked in a fancy dress shop, video hire shop, shoe shop, butchers, Dr's surgery, hospitals, care homes, community care, schools, cleaning jobs, jam & pickles factory, home for "challenged" boys, event organiser and probably more that I simply cant remember. The longest I have held down a job is 2 years and 6 months. I am now 40 years old!!

I just couldn't find "my thing" which has caused myself and my husband much frustration over the years. I have always wanted to be self employed, and did take the plunge a couple of times, but simply couldn't afford to keep going when bills still keep rolling in.

I am a fully qualified massage therapist, and work on a mobile basis as and when, and I am also a psychic medium and do private readings as requested. This is my passion, and what I want to spend my life doing, and I also love writing, I always have. Even in primary school if the teacher said we had to write a story , whilst all the other kids groaned, I had a big smile on my face and cracked on with it. I could easily fill an exercise book with a story, all be it that the teacher would make me re write the entire thing because of my messy hand writing.

Patience isn't one of my strong points, I have a fair amount of patience with people, but I want to be a successful psychic medium and writer, NOW. I know that this is very unrealistic, although I have no doubts in my ability as both, but you see I strive for perfection. If I am going to do it, I am going to be the best. I set the standards very high for myself. I think that this has been one of my issues in the past, working in a shop, being a cleaner, phlebotomist, health care assistant etc. etc. isn't really something that I felt that I could excel at. I did OK, but I have higher aspirations and goals, and now, I do feel that because I am 40, I need to get my backside in gear and start coming up with a plan.

So, what is your plan? I hear you ask, well I have made a start on my plan, though not complete yet, and it still needs some tweaking, I have at least put some thought in to it. As part of this plan, I also need to be much more disciplined with my self, because when I procrastinate, I do it big time.

I have a sheet of paper, with my ultimate goal written at the top, there are 2 goals, to be a published author, and to be a working, successful and credible psychic medium.

Now I need to establish the steps I need to take in order to achieve my goals, and put a time frame on it.
Sounds easy doesn't it? you would think so, but every time I go to start writing a book, I have no idea what to write about, I have no plot, no characters, no idea if I'm going to write fiction or non fiction. Give me a picture and ask me to do some inspirational writing, and I'm off. So I think that this is how I need to write my book - inspirationally.

On the psychic mediumship score, I have arranged to start a development circle, and am going on a trance development course in a few months time, but I also need to make sure that I get some meditation time, and some trance time in, preferably every week.

Again, sounds easy, but I work full time shifts, as does my husband, we have 2 teenage children living at home and attending college, and one that lives just round the corner. We both have to work full time, or the bills don't get paid, so finding the time is going to be a challenge. Thankfully I have a very patient and understanding husband, who takes on the majority of the household chores, but I still don't know where the hell my time goes! quite often I stay up really late, or early, which ever way you want to look at it, because night time is such a peaceful time, and I can be quite productive at night.

On the writing score, it was suggested that I start a blog, and write for the fun of it, so I have. I plan to do lots of inspirational writing over the coming weeks, which I will happily share on my blog, and you can tell me what you think. It will be good practice for me, and I am hoping that it will give me a few ideas for my book. Which incidentally I started and binned 3 times over the last few years!

Wish me luck my lovelies, I will keep you updated with the master plan. Until next time,

Take care,

Soph xx